You bewilder me,
Confuse me,
Yet make me complete.
You make me smile
Make me cry
Make me yell
Make me fall in love with you
even more everyday
You make me angry
Make me laugh
Make me worry
Your eyes enchant me
Your arms hold me
Your love gives me the chills.
You make me feel confident
Make me feel used
Make me feel loved
Make me feel wanted.
You perplex me,
Confound me.
Yet make me complete.
Hello my friend
Never thought I'd greet you
That way again
But my nightmares have come true
I woke up screaming in the night
Cold and lost in my empty bed
Your scent stains my sheets and holds me tight
This loneliness has gone to my head
And I felt everything
Every word that unwillingly slipped
From your quivering lips
The heat from your breath,
The fire of your anger
This concept escapes the dimensions of my reality
As you whisper into the darkness
Penetrated only by nervous and fearful glances
Exchanged rapidly between this once happy couple
Your eyes tell a story graced by fear and misconception
My shaking hand finds yours in painful silence
My lips habitually find their place upon your forehead
As you pull away from my comfort
Teeth find their way into these shunned lips of mine
And the taste of bloods lingers in my mouth
Your head rests so naturally agains
Tonight I'll rock my broken heart to sleep,
Cradled softly on my tear stained pillow
I'll close my eyes and search my mind,
For a thought not occupied by you.
And I pull my knees close to my chest,
And play the game I always do:
Tell myself everything's just fine,
That tomorrow I'll awake
With your arms wrapped around me.
Yet I'll awake with the cool dawn,
Cold and lost in this empty bed,
Pull the blankets tight around me,
The scent of you is overwhelming.
And I'll let these fragile memories,
Sooth me back into restless sleep.
Break lights ahead
Raindrops rolling down the windshield
Window wipers tossing memories back and forth
The clouds open
And pour my soul onto the pavement
I wouldn't change anything I've done
I meant every word I said
A raindrop or two
Lingering on the window
Remind me of the tears in your eyes
Begging me to reconsider
Break lights ahead
Raindrops rolling down the windshield
Window wipers tossing memories back and forth
The clouds open
And pour my soul upon the pavement
I wouldn't change anything I've done
I meant every word I said
A raindrop or two
Lingering on the window
Reminds me of the tears in your eyes
Begging m
Just keep walking. Just keep walking. Don't think. Don't think. Watching one foot move slowly in front of the other, she wasn't paying attention to where she was going, and she didn't care. She wanted to keep walking and never look back. For the first time since she started walking she looked up. She could still identify the surroundings, but where exactly she was, she didn't know, nor did she care.
Focusing once more on the ground beneath her feet, she set her mind to thinking about anything but what her heart wanted to ponder most. Wishing life had a rewind button, that there was something she could do that would allow her to start over.
To Whom It May Concern by meg-i-licious, literature
Literature
To Whom It May Concern
To Whom It May Concern:
I'm not perfect and I never promised I would be. If that's what you were hoping for well then you went to the wrong place. I do everything I can and I'm sorry if it's not good enough for you. I can't make everyone happy and as I try it's destroying me. I'm only one person, I can't fix everyone, I can't fix everything and try as I might I just keep fucking things up.
I can't fix you. I can help, I can advise, I can help you process your thoughts, but I can't fix it when someone else's life has fallen apart, and mines sitting in pieces at my feet.
I want to leave, I want to run away and never look back. Home means not
Just another broken promise to add to the pile,
Just another tear she's meant to cry,
Nothings different when they say goodbye,
It's just another number she can't dial.
The dial tone ringing endlessly on the line,
She never thought she'd feel this alone again,
Never dreamt of it when it all began,
Thought it would all be different this time.
It was a friendship everyone thought would last,
But all good things must come to an end
They both knew it as they said, "so long, my friend."
Time was flying away, going to fast
As they both cried, they knew the other was doing the same,
But one was too out of reach for the other,
And each
Walk with me in the dark,
Hold my hand as you wish on a star
Kiss me beneath the moonlight,
Forget this is our last night.
Pull me close, run your fingers through my hair,
No need to say this isn't fair,
Look into my eyes, you know me too well,
Wipe away my tears before they fell.
Hold me tight, get lost in me,
Maybe it just wasn't meant to be,
Remember this moment until the end of time,
This moment when you were only mine.
Place my fingers to your lips,
Let your hands fall to my hips,
Kiss me softly, and walk away,
Don't look back, just let me fade away…
a broken heart
sealed with a forgotten kiss
a broken soul
sealed with an unforgettable goodbye
these wounds will hide
but never heal
new kisses follow in the wake of old
but never can replace
the kiss of that sunset goodbye
i'm just not feeling right,
its this emotion i cant touch
something hurts deep in my heart,
but my eyes cant cry the pain away.
everytime i think of it,
my heart it skips a beat
and i shake from head to toe.
i want to rid myself of this
get the needles off my skin
but no matter how hard i pull
they imbed themselves further
and crimson beads form a river
then this river begins to flow.
a flowing river covers my being
and i cant determine the source.
icy waters run through my veins,
and i wrap myself in a blanket,
but no ones here to warm these cold nights
no one but me
its this feeling
that somethings just not right,
i'm t
So many dreams relinquished,
So many desires come true,
So many sleepless night,
Spent under the stars with you.
So many memories,
So many inside jokes,
And so many apologies,
For our one and only fight.
Without you by my side I would be lost,
Forever in the darkness of a broken heart,
You took my hand,
And led me into the light.
You showed me what life could mean.
You said I feel your pain,
As we counted shooting stars
And longed for what our lives could be.
You held me as I cried,
Tickled me until I peed.
You held my hand,
On that unforgettable day,
I watched you fall as they took me away.
We came so close,
To losing i
The razor's in my hand,
Just press a little harder.
Bloody tears damped my pillow,
The sheets soiled with my sins.
Just a little harder,
And the blade stops the blood.
Then like a dam,
it breaks from the current.
Move it just a little,
The stream widens to a river.
My eyes are getting hazy,
Yet there is no pain,
Only momentary bliss.
I close my eyes and drift away,
With your blood lingering on my lips.
I feel your hands upon my skin,
Your fingertips toying with my clothes.
Hold my hand hard,
Hold it tight.
Plant a hard kiss on my mouth,
It will make it alright.
Put your hands to my hips,
Whisper please into my ear,
Tell me you want me,
Tell me you love me,
Even though we both know it's not true.
Morning comes,
You're not to be found,
I don't know what i expected,
Maybe one last goodbye kiss.
Unwillingly a tear slides down my cheek,
Because lust came before love.
once upon a midnight's dream
I lost my demons in the darkness
once upon a day dream
I was back in the arms of love
a love of which
I kiss tenderly in the night
a love that I wish for
on a fading star
there are eyes I wish to gaze into
like a flaming summer sunset
when my tears taste like rain
falling from the stars
and I know they're falling for love
and I don't want them to be in vain
"Neither of you even had the decency…" There was a bitterness in my voice that startled him. Perhaps he had grown accustomed to the tenderness and love in my voice, that voice inside of me that always forgave him, no matter what he had done. But not this time. I didn't think I could find it within me to just brush it off, as just another one of his lies.
This wasn't the type of lie you could forgive and forget. It wasn't the kind of lie one could apologize for, that that would be that. It was the kind of lie that gave you a reason to be angry and bitter for much longer then just one night. This was a different kind of lie.
I gave up tryin
There is no music
There are only memories,
"If Only"s and "I should Have"s.
Lying in a hammock,
Best friend close at hand.
In a place you once found comfort.
There is no fiery explosion,
No sudden freeze.
It's been raining for days,
There's looting in the streets,
Sex on every corner.
People mountain climbing,
Sky diving,
Playing the last game of their favorite sport.
Getting all they ever wanted done,
Last wishes acted upon my all.
Yet, you two have retreated here,
To the place you spent childhood summers.
The hammock over the lake,
A perfect view of the mountain.
The place you wanted to be last:
Right here.
Away from a
You say too much when there's nothing to be said,
You say nothing, when there's so much to say.
You say one thing, but you mean another.
You watch the world go by,
Yet you do nothing to stop it,
Your destiny lost in the pain.
You are hopelessly flawed.
You let your heart be consumed by love,
Only to get hurt again.
You cry when you're happy,
You smile when you're sad.
You can't seem to get anything right,
You're always criticized.
You are hopelessly flawed.
You think about the past,
You forget about today,
You don't even think about the future.
Your mind is forever in fantasy,
You can't seem to get back down to earth.
You'r
It was in that moment,
Looking into the seats,
When I realized what was missing,
When I realized what wasn't right.
The empty seat,
That you will never again occupy.
You will never see me on stage,
You will never hear me sing.
You always begged me to sing,
To sing a song for you.
You loved to watch me perform.
You were not my mother,
No you weren't my mother,
But no matter how bad I did,
You were there with a hug,
And words,
That I'd come to associate.
With accomplishment.
It was my first show,
My first time,
And I wanted you to be there,
More then anything in the world
When I first found out-
That I was with child,
I fell in love with you at once,
I was dreaming of your smile...
When they cut you out of me,
My dreams of being your mommy died.
I knew that you were gone,
When I felt that emptiness inside.
And when I think of you...
I am beside myself with grief.
And all these tears I've cried, are for
The child that could've been.
You wouldn't believe it, but all day everyday, I have a running narrative in grammatically correct present tense running through my head.
It's ridiculous. Absolutely. But it's there. I step into a car and the voice in my head that's really words typed out neatly in white says, "I step into the car." Maybe, if I'm stepping into the car for some spicy reason, it will add, "I'm feeling anxious. I hope that everything will be alright" or "Outside, the world looks like its bursting with laughter, and I remember the days just months ago when butterflies owned the air. I smile."
Actually, I lied, just a couple paragraphs back. It's not alwa
From Me to You
I'm going to give you my all
if that is all I can give
Down to my one last breath
If that's the only way you'll live
I'll break every rule possible
If it will make you feel free
And if things don't go your way
Know that you'll always have me
I'll sing you every song
If it's the only song I can sing
Lock you in an endless kiss
If a smile to your lips it would bring
I would carry the weight of the world
If no tear would fall from your eyes
And whenever you shout for my name
I'd run to you, without thinking twice
I'll fight the harshest battles
If by all means you will win
Recite all the prayers in the world
If
Break lights ahead
Raindrops rolling down the windshield
Window wipers tossing memories back and forth
The clouds open
And pour my soul onto the pavement
I wouldn't change anything I've done
I meant every word I said
A raindrop or two
Lingering on the window
Remind me of the tears in your eyes
Begging me to reconsider
Break lights ahead
Raindrops rolling down the windshield
Window wipers tossing memories back and forth
The clouds open
And pour my soul upon the pavement
I wouldn't change anything I've done
I meant every word I said
A raindrop or two
Lingering on the window
Reminds me of the tears in your eyes
Begging m
Well helloooo
I'm trying, i swear. apparently its not working. I finally submitted another ID, i think its the same picture as before, but i dont remember. i havent had much time to write, or to comment. when i get a few mins i do, but its not as much as i'd like. i was looking around DA today and found a few new people who's work amazes me. I'm catching up on comments, i'll get more time when vacation comes...which isnt soon enough unfortunately.
i'm in drivers ed now, which takes so much time. but this coming weeks my last. so thats good.
i miss zach, we havent been able to hang out alot lately because he had exams, and i have drivers ed
I'm back. long after i ever said i would be. I have been so unbelievably busy. But im back now, and im doing great. I started commenting on Deviations, but when i realized i had almost 200, i realized i would never finish, not with all the new ones that are posted everyday. So i've deleted everything, but i beleive i've commented on everything after oct 9, ish. i dont remember exactyly. but now i will remain on top of this, promise. its great to be back, and i hope you forgive me for abandoning this site, because i really didnt want to. but 4-5 hours of homework every night, tends to make fun stuff impossible. but im back, and got my work und
I sorry my lovely. I kinda fell out of the habit I shall try to be on more if I can manage, but I'm not actually in my room all that often. . . . but I promise I still loveth youuuuuu!!!!
and I missith you as well. with a passion. ( a REAL passion, of course).
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